Solstice is nearly upon us and none too soon for me. The short days bear heavily down on me, maybe more particularly because we’ve not seen the sun here for over a week. I am inclined, as those long-ago ancestors, to wrap up in warm woolies, drink hot toddies by the (imaginary) fire, cuddle up with books and family and good food, and just wait it out.
There is probably more for me here, though. Why do I turn away from the darkness, resist the cold? It is something different from my biological need for warmth….I live in a civilized place, after all, with central heating and electric lights. I am unlikely to die from exposure. But I still resist and turn inward, avoiding…what? what would I come in contact with should I just let myself experience that darkness? Why not play a little with it: look into the dark, sit with it, wait and see what is happening, and then, only then, turn back to the light if need be. I know, my body and my mind both know, that the sun will return, the light will come again, and that the darkness is a time of rest, renewal and regrowth….I just have to be willing to accept those gifts along with the darkness and the cold.